renee

Sat, 01 Mar 2008 13:41:16 GMT

february past by so fast. wow.
it's the 1st of march already. gee. =x
haha leap day was yesterday..
what is so big a deal about that damn leap day anyway?
like do you even need to celebrate it? haha
and watsup with babies born on that day?
cant celebrate their birthday every year? whoa..
sad case huh. pity them. lucky me! heh.

anyway so.. happy 1st of march i guess. lol
uhm nothing much to update actually so..
i just wanna put something up here or else it'll seem so dead.
and i dont quite like that. haha
but well, i usually use blogspot so...
thats the reason to this empty LJ. heh.

bye!

Sat, 05 Jan 2008 19:24:14 GMT

Christmas has passed.

New Year's gone too.. quite.

and the starting of school has yet to begun! (>_<)

SHIIIIIT! i'm so not prepared for school! although okay at times i missed my school but i just miss the environmental "friendly" building and my friends and the canteen and their food! but thats about it! i so dont wanna go back to studying! NOOOOO~! i wanna have a longer holiday! but i guess RP has 3wks is better than the other Polys having only 2wks break i think? LOL information gotten from my resourse. =x hahaha~ oh and guess what. the first week of school reopens and we've gotta sit for a science test (if im not wrong) on THURSDAY! i hate thursdays, do you know why? because thurs we have computing (so called math lesson) and i HATE the teacher in charge of my class AND the way he teaches AND the dumb subject itself (which, shld i remind u, has got nth to do with my damn course!!) I'M FREAKIN PISSED!! ARGH! it's gonna be a tiresome first week, i think. maybe. i just hope not. let's just get through with this few weeks, (i think a month more?) before school our longer break starts. and a new "year" begins for us, year 1s now. i seriously cant wait to get into 2nd year 'cause there SHOULD be more interesting stuff which are diploma related. haha. and now i'm like kinda having some trouble with school stuff which is they say we need 40 CE points to graduate or something? i dunno but yeah we need to collect that 40 points and i've only collected like 9? wow. thats "ALOT" huh? (=.=;) sheesh! it's so unfair! because most talks that we can collect those points from are more beneficial to those SEG, SAS students who are like sciency and mathsy.. their school has got more talks den the art and those other schools (e.g CIE) put together! dammit! so its like really unfair coz my school, which is an arts school, has little talks and so we've got to rely on those financial talks etc? no way! but yeah we havent got much choice to choose from.

sad huh? *sigh*

Sat, 22 Sep 2007 15:33:02 GMT

IT happened again, yesterday.
i cant believe it's settled so quickly.. well yes of course it's a good thing that the problem's settled so fast but.. i dont know. somehow i still feel the pain and everything. it hurts alright. but i guess i deserve it. 'cause it was totally my fault. i started it. am i dumb or what? geez. sometimes i just HATE myself. seriously. i can just be so blind to everything around me, while my mouth does its job.. tsk. why am i always like this? i've tried to change before. last time i thought of others' feelings and everything. but they dont think about MINE. so i guess that's why now i dont think about others' feelings.. tsk. i guess i'm still childish huh? =.=

what exactly happened was..
i said some stuff about the wednesday thingy. (japanese teens around our age coming over to our school) SK will be performing i guess. they said it's confirmed. so anyway, i said the wrong stuff.. so when i wanted to approach him and stuff, i look at him and he's giving out a lil different attitude and his face isnt like how it's always been. so i kept asking if he's alright and he never looked into my eyes and said he's okay. he just said yeah he's okay and kept looking away. like he wanted to avoid me.. and he did. so when we were crossing the traffic light and walking across the field there, i kept calling out his name. like 5 times. and he didnt even responded to me once. (i forgot to mention that he already on some music from his phone) and when he just kept walking away from me, suddenly my hear sank. and my legs felt wobbly that i could anytime fall on the ground. i wanted to but i didnt. but i did cry on the spot. i cried and WAILED. like seriously. i tried not to wail so loudly but i couldnt help myself. and when i cried, i tried walking a few steps. those few steps were hard. i mean, my legs felt heavy. when i was crying at that time, in my head i kept thinking "he's walking away from me. he's leaving me. what am i gonna do?" at that point of time i was really LOST. i didnt know what to do. i wanted to just run away from everything. i really wanted to turn back the time and never did the same mistake i did just that few minutes ago. my heart gave a huge thud. it felt as if my heart was being squeezed so tight. we walked to the mrt. (shimei went her own way; she took bus) and the rest of us (with melia and nassa) went up the escalator. nassa and melia talked to him. i sat at the other end of the seat, alone. i started to think back again what i did. i felt so hurt and angry at myself for being so dumb. i couldnt go home in the state i was in. but my feet really felt tempted to go home 'cause at that time when i was walking to the far end of the seat, my train was there. i really wanted to go home. but i couldnt bring myself to. so i stayed there. crying. and then nassa said he has some stuff he wants to tell me. so he came over. and i told him to sit next to me. so he did. and when i wanted to say sorry and everything, i couldnt stop myself from bursting into tears. so while i was apologising, i was crying at the same time. and he kept saying it was partly his fault and everything's gonna be alright. i couldnt really speak.. i kept crying and crying like a lost child. he held me in his arms. my fringe was wet with my tears. my tears kept dripping onto my arm. and yet i kept crying. it was as if that's the only solution i had.. and somehow we made up. when i was crying, he said he'll send me home. in my mind, i was thinking.. "after all that he's still sending me home?" i kept crying because i keep wondering "why is he so good to me?" i feel like such a bitch. honestly, if i'm ever any meaner, i'd probably be dumped by him soon enough. geez. i hate myself.

i really really HATE myself.
only god knows how much i feel like slapping myself.

Sat, 01 Sep 2007 18:49:40 GMT

read this:

"r**** was like pissing me off can. she bought a guy friend along, took his DOG TAG& forgot to return it to him. that guy went back home so she wore it. when she was going to sleep she COMPLAINED that the DOG TAG was heavy. so i just said casually "then you put it in your bag lah" (those who know me will know what kinda tone i used when i say things like that) then she can fucking reply me "i scared people steal it.& don't say until like that lah. your attitude sucks loh" SCREW YOU! i could have slapped her face if ain wasn't there. i didn't say anything to her when she SQUEEZED me to the corner& i ended up with no place to lie down loh. then she complained to me say what i keep vibrating on the bed when i laugh? whatever lah."

my ~~friend~~ classmate said that about me in her blog. wow. nice. its been a while since someone is against me. hated me or something. what a relieve. i've been thinking that it's too good to be through that my life is so "uber perfect". get it? yeah. so yeah.. thanks SHILESSE. you woke me up for a min. honestly, i wanted to say sorry.. coz when im sleeping, i will be moody and all. so yeah. it's kinda too late to say it but i'll say it here. I'M SORRY. hmm not like you can read it anyway.. ahh whatever. it's over so.. uhh whatever.

like somebody told me before.. Life's A Bitch.
and it's kinda true.. when he/she said it. hmm you know.. although i said whatever to that post she posted up, i do feel hurt.. like damn hurt. but i cant blame her coz it's my fault. honestly, i hate my attitude. and she should've slapped me there and then. get it over and done with. just coz ain's there? whoa. wonder what'll happen if ain wasnt there. hmm. never you mind. *sigh*

im done here. bye.

Tue, 07 Aug 2007 14:42:23 GMT

its that look in his eyes..

its the look of sadness..
its the look of anger..
its the look of being hurt..
its all perfectly shown in his eyes.

things will never be the same again.
sometimes i wish i could turn back time..
wish i could say "let's go back to who we were.."
wish i could say "let's start all over again!"
how i wish it was that easy.

sometimes i wish this had never happened to me.
sometimes i had hoped it wasnt me.
sometimes i ask myself why me..?
i have yet to find the reason.
i am still searching for the reason.
the reason to why all this happens.

the answer to all my questions..
i'm still searching for it.
searching...
searching...
searching still.

going.. going.. gone.

Sat, 16 Jun 2007 13:09:07 GMT

Haru's gone..
Sanzo's gone..
who's next?
Hikaru.....
sigh*

seriously.. why is everything in this world unfair?
i've just met the 3 best guys in the whole wide world and i'm suppose to say goodbye to them NOW?!
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
i feel like stranggling someone!! grr*
okay okay so i may be a little overreacting here..
yes i'll still see them all after their 2yrs or so in NS.
but like HELLO? we're talking 2YEARS here..
not 2weeks... );

Hikaru's going off in September.. sigh*
i tell you.. by the time Hikaru sets off, i'm gonna start emo-ing BIG time!
sobs*
you guys are great!
the best guys i've ever met in my entire life..
i will pray for your health and everything..

LOVE YOU GUYS!

xoxo
Renee <3

Wed, 13 Jun 2007 19:21:42 GMT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BrCL_uN-n5s

CHECK OUT YAMAPI AND KAME SINGING SEISHUN AMIGO LIVE!

Yamapi loves to Shake His Ass! XD

Kame is just as entertaining (:

okay people.. it's like 3.18am in the morning now and i'm still typing away on my keyboards.. i'm getting sleepier each second. but i don't wanna sleep. you know me.. night owl. LOL

damn. aunt's nagging again. night all.

Sat, 26 May 2007 08:47:00 GMT

you're every line..
you're every word..
you're everything..

I AM SO IN LOVE WITH MICHAEL BUBLE'S SONG: EVERYTHING! hehehe. XD

A is for Appreciation

Fri, 18 May 2007 13:26:05 GMT

Appreciate others.

Don't make use of them and throw them aside when you don't need them.

I DESPISE these people the most.

Appreciation is one of the most important factors you need to have in life.

If you don't start appreciating things or people now, you will never go far in life.

And i mean what i say.

Don't believe me?

Try it out.

And believe me, you WON'T like it.

There's a saying that goes like this:
"Whatever you do to others, it will come back to you threefolds."

...in other words, KARMA.

And don't tell me you don't know what Karma is..

So just be good and take my advice.

You won't regret it. I promise you.

You'll be thankful to me instead.

O.M.G

Mon, 30 Apr 2007 06:22:48 GMT

what have i gotten myself into?

okay so here's the scenario:

Girl likes Boy A.
Boy A doesn't know about it.
Girl doesn't know if Boy A likes her.
Boy B likes Girl.
Girl likes Boy B 'cause he's a great friend.
Girl doesn't want to hurt Boy B.
Girl is in DILEMMA!!

sigh* what am i to do? i'm going crazy!! >.<

Sat, 21 Apr 2007 11:27:41 GMT

just got back from Causeway Point. are you kidding me!? $80-$200+ just to repair a handphone!?!? OMG. might as well buy a new one. so i've to stick to this BUDGET phone for like 5 months, from now till August. i've to wait for my birthday to get a new phone.. which is like ummm 5 FREAKING MONTHS LATER?? but i guess it's worth the wait. so i'm thinking of buying the same phone, 7610. it's my favourite phone, you see. LOL or should i get a better, in other words, more expensive phone? haha hmm i've still got sometime to think about it. i think i'll most likely buy the same phone? >.< haha oh well. we'll see.

so now, back at home, in my room, all alone, doing absolutely nada...

let's address my currently favourite topic. hehe why do people fall in love? why do they need to be loved? what IS love? OMG. am i a FREAK or what? what's with this lovey dovey thing?? LMAO. i guess everyone has gone through this phase of life huh? speaking of love reminds me of Moulin Rouge. yup. NOT Romeo and Juliet. LOL i've never in my whole life watched Romeo and Juliet before. can you believe it?!? haha but i've watched Moulin Rouge, which is WAY better, for like 5 times already? hehe i love it! it's one of my favourite movies/ love stories. >.< everytime i watch it, i'll cry. well, not really the SOBBING type but just silent crying. it's really sad at the end 'cause the "Juliet" died and the "Romeo" had to move on with life, without her. boo hoo* i'm sure you all have watched it, right? i mean, it IS popular and all.. so everyone in the world should know about it. haha at least I think so.

i'm feeling depressed. yesterday, cried my eyes out. >.< i can't believe i'm actually crying for him. am i THAT into him? oh my.. why do girls cry over the guys they like? is it out of happiness? out of frustration? sadness? disappointment? ..damn! here we go again. me and my pathetic love life. ...never mind. i won't say it anymore. at least, i'll try not to. haha

no school today, no school tomorrow. what am i gonna do tomorrow? sleep the whole day? go out with friends? who? listen to music all day long? watch boring tv shows? hmm. guess this is something for me to find out and for you to not bother about. LOL okay okay i know i'm being lame here. alright. i'll end here for today.

cheers.

nothing..

Fri, 20 Apr 2007 05:22:12 GMT

honestly, this is the first time i'm like using this livejournal. LMAO. i still prefer blogging though. hehe don't know why but yeah.. hehe maybe 'cause i'm really into it? or maybe out of habit? LOL whatever it is, i still prefer blogging.. XD anyway, now in class waitin for 2nd break to end.. seriously BORING! >.< 'cause my team finished our powerpoint presentation and stuff like damn early. haha yeah. er so i'm like listening to music right now, chatting with people in class ON MSN (lmao) and "blogging" here.. haha sigh* it's so hard to like someone. i advise you not to!! 'cause you'll just get heartache and stuff.. >.< it sucks alright. so for those lucky couples out there, damn you ARE lucky.. LOL hmm so i got nothing else to say. i'll just end it here i guess. will update when i got the mood. haha see ya!